Disappointment

I applied for a new position within the University a few weeks ago. This was a position I had been recommended for and I felt pretty good about my chances. I may not have necessarily expected to get the job, but I at least thought I’d get an interview and be seriously considered. I found out today that I was not being considered because they were only interviewing CPAs. The job posting had said ‘CPA Preferred’ but it wasn’t a requirement for application. I guess they want all senior business office staff to be CPAs now, and I knew that was the case – I guess I just figured that since I was working towards a CPA I’d be at least considered. (I’ll be done with my Masters in May 2012.)

The one silver lining, I suppose, is that the Controller pulled me in to explain the situation and was very complimentary. He said that he really liked me and would love to move me up, but it would be hard for him to hire a non-CPA when there had been so many qualified current-CPAs apply for the position. He told me about another position that will likely be opening up in another year or two. (An older gentleman who will soon be retiring) He said that he was hoping to just post that position internally, and that if I were closer to having my CPA license I’d be a good fit there.

So, life goes on. I will continue in my current position and it looks like if I do want to move up within UVU I will most definitely need to get my CPA. Honestly, I’m not thrilled by that thought - but it’s just another year of studying. I’ve just heard so many horror stories about failing…. Apparently passing the CPA exams is no small feat. I guess I’ll find out.

Negativity

“your words can’t bring me down…”

(mini-rant)

So, I realize that everyone has bad days, and there have been plenty of days that I myself have felt pretty low. But, for the most part I consider myself an optimist. I like to look at the bright side of things and I like giving people the benefit of the doubt. Lately though, I’ve begun to be more sensitive to other people’s negativity – and it bothers me. I’ve always subscribed to the belief that if you can’t say something nice, you shouldn’t say anything at all. SO, instead of complaining, whining, and coming up with unrealistic suggestions that will make everyone else unhappy – just keep your negativity to yourself. And if you find that all this negativity is boiling up inside of you, you really ought to see a therapist to work through that. I can be a happy person all on my own, and although that isn’t always the case, that is what I am striving for. I’ve had a couple experiences recently that have just affirmed to me that I CAN be happy on my own, and my happiness doesn’t need to depend on anyone else.

While I still do place a great deal of value on helping others and I truly want those around me to be happy as well, I can’t control their moods – and I shouldn’t have to. Hopefully by not allowing myself to get drugged down into depression with them I can maintain my positive outlook and perhaps help them up. But for those who don’t want to be helped up, sorry but I’m not going down.